bad dreams

I can't believe I fell asleep
Didn't think it could happen
After such a day
After so many hours of tears
Feeling like I tore my own heart out
Like I gave up on so much
So much love
Such a life that would have been
Your mistakes hidden under tears
Your flaws painfully wonderful
Falling asleep from a nightmare
When you called

"I can't even fall asleep"
you stuttered and cried these words to me
"Can you come over?"

and now I can't sleep
thinking about
all this that I've done to you

I love you so
I always have
I always will
I don't know why this had to happen

guilt-ridden heart breaker
like there's a special ring of hell for me
a special ring
I once gave to you

Nothing Waits

Nothing waits for me at home
No embrace, no embrace
No warm smile, no collapsing
No burying inside your face

Nothing waits for me in bed
Desert nights would be so warm
to the cold that comes from the lament
of ruining a once welcoming bed

HASLAB

I never thought it come to this
But here I am
Looking up a picture of you
My eyes can't stay dry

I think you're so hopeless
I think I have yanked the picnic cloth from under you
and now I don't know what to do
it's my fault for leaving you