shadows in a car

at night driving
passing in the streetlights anyone is beautiful
anyone is fleeting in a moment of light
and is connected for that moment
in a struggle
a passage through darkness
a lapse of defenses to save what emerged
in this miracle chamber
this wandering backseat
but you, floating dancer, won't be driven at night
you have nowhere to go but away
would you ever find yourself as my fare
i won't wait for the shadows cover me

Found on a piece of paper

Do you think that this is how it'll be
When one of these years we'll happen to meet
You've always known so much more than me
It's always been that the things you'd say
were always right at the end of the day
You were always right- and I'm sorry I didn't see
Do you think things will ever change?
Can were ever talk and not feel strange?
Tell me, do you think, cuz you always know
Will I ever make up for what I've done?
Will I ever not feel like I was the one
That brought this on us both?
Do you think I'll ever talk to you again
in the way like it was just us two again
Do you think, then, will I manage not to cry?
Will I ever fall asleep without seeing
you peaceful face far away dreaming
Oh, do you think you even know why?
Oh, why? My, my, my darling why?
You and I

Napkin Lyrics

Did my voice sound like that kids?
I don't know anymore
All I hear are echoes of what I said to you
I know that you're just warm
but I can't stand your fire now

Vulnerable

Can't put words together
When you're there
Refuge in your eyes
Panic from your smile
Cannot feel at ease
Want to jump around
Want to tell you this
I'm still hurt
But you're breaking through this
Do you even know?
How vulnerable you make me
Delight in tearing me down!

Empty picture frames

That never got filled
stuck to my shelf
shudder when I walk by

bad dreams

I can't believe I fell asleep
Didn't think it could happen
After such a day
After so many hours of tears
Feeling like I tore my own heart out
Like I gave up on so much
So much love
Such a life that would have been
Your mistakes hidden under tears
Your flaws painfully wonderful
Falling asleep from a nightmare
When you called

"I can't even fall asleep"
you stuttered and cried these words to me
"Can you come over?"

and now I can't sleep
thinking about
all this that I've done to you

I love you so
I always have
I always will
I don't know why this had to happen

guilt-ridden heart breaker
like there's a special ring of hell for me
a special ring
I once gave to you

Nothing Waits

Nothing waits for me at home
No embrace, no embrace
No warm smile, no collapsing
No burying inside your face

Nothing waits for me in bed
Desert nights would be so warm
to the cold that comes from the lament
of ruining a once welcoming bed

HASLAB

I never thought it come to this
But here I am
Looking up a picture of you
My eyes can't stay dry

I think you're so hopeless
I think I have yanked the picnic cloth from under you
and now I don't know what to do
it's my fault for leaving you